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Shar

The pain in the heart

It's so excruciating...
The pain, the void that i'm feeling it's just so overpowering.
Concert is coming and I'm in such a depressed state.

I can't bring myself to write anymore...
Tears are rolling down my cheeks as i'm typing...

I hate this feeling.
I just want to be there for you.

Shar

empty

Nobody else but you.
The tree is empty, where is the koala?
Shar

Cry

imu ilu.

Pleasant surprise

Amidst the tough times i'm facing now, i got a present from Guo Jun (:
It's a very nice t shirt, and i love it a lot (: [hahah he wants me to post this up]

I really really hope, everything would turn out fine... I seriously hope and pray so..

Shar

I

Things are getting quite haywire in my life right now, especially in the friendship and relationship department.. I hope everything would turn out great, actually i pray that it will...

I really do love you.
Shar

I still do.

I really hope everything would be fine...no... i hope everything would turn out great...

Loves,
Shar

First day of school?

Boring.
Overcrowded.
Funny.
Friends.
Lackluster.


Sometimes i just think way too much... It's unhealthy :(
but i'm trying to keep it on the low (:
Shar

Talk it out

(=

Love

Never easy.
Shar

8 more days

Nervous. Excited. Happy. Hopeful. Scared. Confident.
Shar

(:

It's good to have a smile at the end of the day (:
I am your noonoo (:
Loves,
Shar

(: (:

Thanks you for the birthday cake just now (: <3

Loves,
Shar

(:

A smile to begin the start of a day (:

If we hold on

10 more days (:
Yes 10 more.

Gotta keep holding on (:

imu imu imu imu
Shar

A conversation

Jess: What? An invitation to a party? Who's?

Brooke: Yes a party, at Tara's!

Jess: Oh... I don't think my schedule could fit there Brooke.

Brooke: But Jess, it's Tara we are talking about!

Jess: I can, but I don't want to.

Brooke: Jess why?

Jess: Because it's a fucking pity party where everything is all about her and her problems!

Brooke: Come on, that's what friends are for, to hear out each other ain't it?

Jess: Are you stupid? She has never really hear out my problems, all of it is all about her.

Brooke: Well that's kinda true...

Jess: Kinda? It is true.

(:

Took this picture during the musical break (:
***
Had a really long tiring day, but it was at least VERY fruitful (:
Thanks to all who came today (:

It's really awesome, how things can really happen when you put your fullest for it. For example the musical, i didn't really had faith in it, like it could go that far, but look at where we are now (: We are doing a pretty awesome job (: Love the whole process (:

Shar is definitely happy (:
and btw, it is the 14th of April (:
Loves,
Shar

Happy 19th shar (:

Thank you all for the birthday greets (: and also lovely presents (:
Shar

Another long week coming up!
Shar

I'm Nineteen (:

Yes I am Nineteen (:
Shar

I'm glad

Love is so true :D
Shar

Glad we held on (:
12th April 2009

Noo noo

This is my new good friend noo noo (:
Shar

Sometimes it's just...

Annoying.
Shar

Rain

Serendipity? Is it?

Shar

Planning

In order to have a good birthday tomorrow, I have to sacrifice my Saturday on doing loads of work and planning :(

Sorry duatengs, can't join you all today :(
Shar

An early birthday Gift from God

A very good lesson from above.
Never to do it again, thank you God (:

Shar

24 more hours to 19

The title says it all (:

Family, Loved Ones (:

This advertisement, says it all.
Loves,
Shar

I'm a Workaholic

Thank God it's gonna be GOOD FRIDAY (:
Meaning it's time to really chill out and relax for a long weekend.
Yes i still have work to concentrate on but still i need to rest (:

Damn school is going to like start soon, and I'll miss the holidays like a lot. Actually the holidays ain't really like the holidays. Been in school almost like all the time, seriously. I'm a Workaholic.

Working my brain from day to night, and when i get my rest, at least I will feel that I had a fruitful day (:
Loves,
Shar

Birthday is in 3 days time (:
A little surprise is always good (:
Loves,
Shar

Pissed.

Seriously.
Don't piss me off.
never ever.

Shar

Tired. Happy.

Today was rather awesome (:

**

I bet i'm having like huayi students flooding into my blog and my facebook, sheesh!
Well oh well, I guess that's the life of a teacher? :D

Shar

Funneh

Lesson Numero Uno! Don't be a slut, wash your butt!
Shar

Sister Act (:

Watched Sister Act, damn awesomely funny! :D

Sister Mary Roberts "Oh I'm so nervous about the pope, i mean, what if i forget the lyrics?"

Sister Mary Clarence "Then you'll go straight to hell... Nah I'm just kidding"

Seriously funny
Shar

Am I ready?

There's so many things in life, whereby I have to stop and ponder about.
"Am I Ready?"

Am I ready to turn 19?
5 more days before I turn 19, and so little time left to reminisce all the time I had when i was 18.
So many things occurred, and definitely i have changed a lot. Not only in weight but also in the way i think.

Lots of things that i despised about, but when i thought it through, it was really just blessings in disguise.

So many things are going through my mind now.
Sometimes I just want all of them to just stop, and let me just enjoy peace and silence.

I know that's not possible.
I know that's loserish.
I know that's stupid.

So why wish upon something that will never happen right?
Do I have any other choice, but to just go on and burst through challenges like I'm breaking down facades that seems never ending.

I really wanna thank Ray, for being there for me, through the storms that both of us had before, we managed to pull through. Thanks Ray for being such an awesome best friend, thanks for forever being there for me (: I thank God that you are my best friend (:

Loves,
Shar

Eww

My Mac is dirty :(
Dirty Apple :(

Shar

Extremely tiring Race

Grandioso is in 20 days.
A lot of working and polishing to do!

Keep the challenges coming, I'm here to win it all (:
Loves,
Shar
Goodnight world
Maybe i would move again to another blog

Goodnight World

"Iam a countries gatekeeper! and any procedure i need to do to protect yo baby,and my babies,and my baby's babies,and even my cousin TeeTee's baby's baby's babies,I will carry after my fullest ability,and capacity to protect the world community !"

I need to laugh my stress away...
Loves,
Shar
imu ilu (:

I see myself in you

Baby picture (:
Love that baby in there a lot (: (:
Shar

7 more days

To my birthday, I'm sexcited i swear (:
Thanks to J-Dish who bought for me Euphoria Calvin Klein and a Topman Hoodie (:
Wonder what's gonna be next? (:

Loves,
Shar

imu ilu

shar

Work work work :(

Currently in the library doing my work. and i have a lot more to go :(
Shar

Never again.

I'm disappointed with myself.
I promise never to do it again. NEVER EVER.

Turning 19 in like 7 more days.
Grandioso IV in 21 more days.

Happy birthday Miranda (: You're awesome

I just feel that i need to step up my game and be really focus (:

Loves,
Shar

I think

You're turning back into a slut. :(
Shar

Video (:

Funny as hell (:
Loves,
Shar

Happy Birthday MEE rander

Happy birthday to MEERANDER (:

BBQ-ing at Shanya's house was awesome (:
Thanks Shanya for allowing us to go over your place to BBQ (:

Meerander ah...
Better don't go over the rainbow too much ;)
Loves,
Shar

Colour me Life (:

London with blue

Fo with Red

Aminat with Green

Wide Eyed Alison with hot pink

Teyona with yellow

Been addicted again to ANTM, now with it's 12th cycle (: Damn they can make a zodiac cycle with all the winners, would be awesome LOL.

Anyways i'm really exhausted right now, but at least i'm happy (:
Should i have a private blog? (:
Shar

I'mma Koala Freak!

Don't ask me why, but i love koala (:
Just one Koala (:

Napping as always, koala (:
'
Koala and tree! (: (: (:

Shar

Halo

Beyonce Halo


Remember those walls I built
Well baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make a sound
I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your Halo
I've got my angel now

(Bridge:)
It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out

(Chorus:)
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see you halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over you face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo, halo
[ Halo lyrics from http://www.lyricsyoulove.com/ ]
(x2)

(Verse 2:)
Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest nights
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light
I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like fallin'
Gravity can't forget
To pull me back to the ground again

(Bridge)

(Chorus)

I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo, halo
(x2)

Halo, halo oohhhh...

(Chorus)

I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo, halo


Tis' the gift to be simple, tis' the gift to be free...
Shar

Back to Shar. Koala and Tree

Koala and Tree (:
Just love watching the koala sleeping so peacefully (:

Well I'm hungry now and i feel like getting something from macs :D





Loves,
Shar

Time to Sleep (:

Time is passing fast.
Shar
Goodnight world

A big wide smile (:

A big wide smile (:
A big wide smile (:
A big wide smile (:
A big wide smile (:
A really big wide smile ((:
A big wide smile (:
A big wide smile (:
A big wide smile (:

Loves,
Shar

Fiery Aries. Maybe too fiery. I need to cool down my temper (:

Loves,
Shar

Tell me.

I'm very worried for you :(
Shar

So much for April Fool's Day

Apparently it's April fool's day. and it doesn't even feel like one.

Though i did tricked Clare into believing that it is Esther's birthday today and she went bimbospasm i swear.

"OMGOGOMGOMG"


Loves,
Shar

11 more days

Lucky number 11 (:
11 more days to my birthday.

Shar's not gonna put up his wishlist on his blog, UNLIKE SOMEONE HAHAHAHAHA :P

Shar's been thinking too much. If he has a device that would slap him if he thinks too much, it would have slapped him 63767832989326 times.

Loves,
Shar

I'm reading again (:

I'm reading again (:
Shar

BFF

Best Friend Forever (;
Kryshelle Britelle Fong thank you! :D
Shar

Epihany one

I'm not an insomniac, seriously I'm not.
But there are certain nights when i just don't want to sleep at all, for example tonight.
I have no idea why? But I've been lugging that jacket of mine everywhere, and sniffing it on it like it's glue. Addicted, addicted to that soft cushy smell of that cupboard. (to some you might know which cupboard I'm referring to ;)

Well my purpose for this post is about how ridiculously late i could sleep. The thing is i sleep, only when my laptop sleeps. Meaning when it's battery is like dying or dead. Now it's reading "8 percent" and frankly i feel like 8 percent too.

My eye lids are like falling and I'll soon drift into oblivion, and soon enough my head's on the coffee table (I'm in the living room) and my Mac under my thighs.

Mom has been rather generous(not to me) to the salvation army. Seriously, I'm not kidding she took my Ed Hardy and wanted me to give it away. Mom, FYI that T shirt is like hundreds of dollars worth and I'm not giving it away, besides it was a gift from my friend. Sheesh.

Apart from shirts she was like packing up the store with my dad, i swear these past few days were horrendous. The house looks like it's falling apart, things everywhere. Such a home. Right.
Well it is for a good reason, charity. Charity almost escapes every little damn thing that we wanna blame for.

As long it's for charity. Sheesh, that honour to have a good heart is ridiculous. Sometimes it is kinda funny to see how people go all forth for charity and then realized that they are on their wits end to make ends meet after giving away.

People have this funny perception, sort of a soft landing for them in times of crisis. This perception called Karma. Good Karma that is, people find comfort in good karma, they'll be off worrying about debts and shit, instantly out from nowhere, enlightenment from above, they think of Good Karma. "Oh God is going to repay me.. yakkity yak yak"

So cliche. Of course most of the time it happens, good karma comes true, but i think it's all self fulfilling Prophesies. Seriously.

Strangely enough, we humans, always think more of the good karma, how about the bad karma? Didn't anyone tell you that a coin has two sides? (i was just prompt about low battery sheesh) Mistreating someone or even an animal, don't they think about bad karma? Well i believe some do, but most of us gloat over the good side. Ludicrous.

Seriously, we should all believe in things wholly and not partly. It's so funny when people just believe in just the nicer side, i mean I'm not stereotyping all humans, but it seems that generations that are coming (or should i say the generations now) are not just picky about their food. They are picky about what they want to believe in.

Damn, i think i had an epiphany. Which felt great.
It was suppose to be a short post, but instead, damn.
Good night world, my battery reads 2 percent. it's 2.56am.
Loves,
Shar

Photobooth-ed again

Met up with my tuition kids, Fiona and Wei Liang. Fiona was damn funny, she was like omg is that a mac? and she was like being all funny about my mac. She exchanged my mac for her hello kitty file cuz she wanted to feel how great it feels to carry a mac. Hilarious!

Of course they were amazed with photobooth, and duh they camwhored. Such whores i swear.

Wei Liang said that this looks like a vajayjay,right.

Incoming retarded faces (:

Ps: I've posted the pictures hor!
Loves,
Shar

Note to self

Let's do this together, hand in hand as one. (:

Love will keep us alive ;)
Shar

Cry.

just wanna cry.

New mind. New Attitude.

Gotta conquer my mind and revolutionize my attitude.

Refresh, command + R. To some it's F5.
Shar

i miss you.

it's hard. Don't you think so?

I don't understand

I don't understand
I don't understand
I don't understand
I don't understand
I don't understand
I really don't understand
I don't understand
I don't understand
I don't understand
I don't understand

Shar

Paranoia goes away

When i hear your voice (:
Goodnight world,
Shar

Paranoia

Shar is too paranoid, thanks to Ray for slapping him out of it.

Paranoia is not your best friend shar.

Sheesh,
Shar

Shar's thinking too much

Shar you are thinking too much, it's unhealthy.

Loves,
Shar

FUNGRY

Fucking Hungry Period.

Victoria Concert Hall

Singing today at Victoria Concert Hall (:
Been there like a lot of times, kinda got used to the acoustics there and stuff.

(: and imu.
Shar

Positivity

Had a very fun time at choir.
Gonna keep up my high and positive energy, because i want all of them to be happy and motivated to sing (:
No use getting all sour about incidents, cuz i'm just gonna trample it over and shout rejoice!

Loves,
Shar
Goodnight World (:
ilu (:

you by my side

So many plans of us (:

Sometimes i just want to sit next to you and sleep while your head's on my shoulder (:

(:
Shar

hug hug

(:

I kindastress.

So many things are occurring around me.
Grandioso IV in 30 days time. Gosh the stress is coming all over again just like last year for Grandioso III.

Had nightmares before, still having some now about Grandioso IV. Well it is 30 more days, and i'm counting down to that day, when the curtains will open for all of us to sing.

Loves,
Shar

Catfight

Seriously.

Fuck off by the way.
FUCK OFF.

Hey

Hmm let's see...

I'm gonna kill you.
Shar

(:

(:

Popular (:

Confessions of a Shopaholic

Caught this movie, it's like the most awesome movie EVER!!
Seriously gotta watch it (:

Now i feel like reading the book, though it looks girly!
Shar

Photobooth-ed (:

Just some pictures from my Photo Booth (:


Mom and sis and SOME nephews (:


Sisters and SOME nephews(because not all of them are there)

Some pictures took today before meeting (:

Bernice trying make a good man dough face
Deborah covering her face, trying to hide her fringe that she claims ugly
Dian fixing her hair sehs :P

Aniszah and me (: She stole half my sandwich by the way :P

(: Shar's tired.
Tomorrow I'm looking out for Fuhua Secondary School!
Loves,
Shar

Grandioso IV; Journey

Do come and support (:

Loves,
Shar
good night world!

And so

Not gonna be an empty promise i swear.

Let's keep this going (:
Good night World (:

Loves,
Shar

Hua Yi Secondary School

Loads of bright and funny kids there (:

Pleasure to do relief teaching there :D

I hope tomorrow would be another day there, cuz Mahmudah is there too! :D

Loves,
Shar

Teaching

Omg relief teaching is AWESOME! :D

Taught at Hua Yi Secondary School (:

Details at night (:
Shar

Matrix

Saw the matrix on channel 5.
Sat there for 5 minutes, walked away after that.
It's too boring.

Good night world (:
Shar

(:

(: loads of smiley, and most probably tomorrow is my first day at Jurong West Secondary School! :D

Fingers crossed!

Loves,
Shar

W902

New phone baby (:
Lime's the name (: Thanks sis for the early birthday gift (:
Shar

Faith and Trust.

Goodnight world.
Shar has thought a lot, and all he needs is a good night rest and his Koala Bear (:

Loves,
Shar

Sometimes i do

Though it's just tomorrow.
But it's unbearable.

Stay with me.
Shar

Proposals!

I just realized, i have lots of work to do. Gah :(

Work work woorrrkkk!!
Oh btw my phone died. Will be phoneless this few days :(
Shar

Life Love Work

Practicing with Fang Hui was awesome the other time, so determined to practice harder :D :D
But gosh I'm getting quite busy nowadays, gonna start teaching JWSS(Jurong West Secondary School) Next week, can't wait!

Shar Loves you (:
Shar

When you're bored. Take a snap, or snaps. (:

Cam Ho! That's what Shanya would say! Anyways got like tissue paper that has kinda cool wordings on it(not really cool but photobooth worthy)









(: (: (:
Shar

ANTM (:

Busy busy busy :(
Shar